Deep Understanding.

THE STORY – How are soulful decisions made? And how does true understanding actually arise?

With THE STORY I’m sharing words from my soul, stories from my life, and the myth of my experience. Today I’m taking you on a journey of decision making: the kind that is made from a deep sense of inner knowing, rather than the rational mind – and revealing a big change in my life.

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You may already have heard the news: We are moving to Sweden.

And if you’ve been following me for a little while, you may remember the piece I wrote back in the summer about landing in Germany again after our break in the North – the dissolution, and the rehabilitation journey that followed, not yet complete at the time, but deeply in-process.

A lot has shifted since then.

On the practical level, my husband has been applying for jobs, and I have been working through business matters, exploring housing options, and selling whatever we don’t intend to drive 2500 kilometres across Europe.

But the biggest shifts have occurred much deeper inside: in the subtle realms, on the inner planes. And that’s where I want to go today:

To the place where soulful decisions are made.

I used to be a real logic-addict.

The kind of person who’d sit down to write lists of pros and cons when a decision was to be made. Switching on my analytical mind, going through possible scenarios from A-Z, working really, really hard on making the best decision. The most sensible decision. The one I could explain the best, the one that sounded most reasonable, the one that I didn’t feel afraid to share with others, the one that I was sure would make me look like a responsible, considerate, well-prepared, intelligent adult.

I was desperate to understand every aspect of every step involved with every decision I made, grasping for control wherever possible, holding on to all threads available to me. I wanted to be in charge, and I wanted to do it well. But it was oh-so-exhausting.

Over the years, something changed.

It was the Gene Keys synthesis that made my addiction to reasons and logic come to a halt, when I learned that my Life’s Work, the 4th Gene Key and its Gift of Understanding. This Gene Key taught me that true understanding cannot come from the mind: it can only be perceived by the whole body.

It’s when the mind finally realises that it has reached its boundaries, that a feeling of inner knowing can take over. When this happens, the understanding floods the whole body and lights up your whole being. Now the time has come that you have understood that true understanding can never come from the mind but from being. And this very process sets your mind free – now it can finally focus on the things it is actually meant to do: research and communication, rather than deciding and deep understanding.

Now it didn’t take long to understand this intellectually. But it took a long time for this wisdom to truly land in my body.

The moment I knew it had happened snuck up on my very quietly.

I found myself sitting at my little writing desk one morning, watching the sun rise over the mountains and rooftops, when a very quiet, but very intense knowing washed over me. In that moment, it became clear to me that a decision had been made. Or rather: a decision had arisen. Evolved. Come to life. Almost unnoticeable, quietly, on the backdrop of my life. We will move to Sweden.

I didn’t decide this.

I didn’t sit down to make a choice. I didn’t weigh pros and cons, I didn’t write lists, I didn’t think it through.

The decision arose in my body. From the core of my soul. And my heart was the first to know. Then my cells began to pick up the frequency. Tingled with excitement. My belly filled with love. The air in my lungs began to glow. Something lit up. Something began to sing. All this happened slowly, quietly, over time. Until one day, gently and softly, the depth of Understanding touched my awareness, floated into my consciousness, like a boat of truth on a quiet lake, silently but potently drifting ashore with a treasure on board.

Since this moment at my little writing desk, my world has completely changed and shifted. Even though we still live in the same town, we still do the same jobs, we still follow the same routines – everything is gearing up for change. While from an outsider’s perspective nothing has actually changed yet, on the inside everything has changed. And keeps on changing.

One synchronicity chases the next. The level of guidance I am receiving is beyond words, beyond anything I could have ever imagined. Everything is being orchestrated perfectly.

Even when things appear to go wrong, the apparent hurdles turn out to have been perfectly placed by life to redirect me into the right direction. I can feel how fully I have landed on my soul destiny timeline. Something has clicked into place. Beautifully, powerfully, gracefully.

I don’t know when precisely we will move.

I don’t know where exactly we will live.

I don’t know how our work will change.

I don’t know anything from the perspective of a controlling mind.

Yet I know everything from the perspective of a trusting soul.

And so I surrender to life’s plan. I surrender to the Dream of the North. I surrender to the knowing that everything will work out exactly as it’s meant to. I surrender to the pathless path.

A few years ago, I would never have dared to dream that I could get to this place of trust, of intuitive knowing, of understanding deep, deep in my body and soul. I would never have guessed that my ever-racing mind can be calmed. That I can surrender. That I can trust.

And yet here I am.

In the midst of change. Calm. Trusting. And deeply, deeply in love with the the wild ride I’m on.

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