The Purpose of Being Unseen.
THE STORY – A Revelation of the Hidden One. Exploring the Reasons for Remaining Invisible to the World.
With THE STORY I’m sharing words from my soul, stories from my life, the myth of my experience. Today I explore why being Unseen can actually hold great purpose. I warmly invite you to share your reflections!
The past few years have been a true unwinding for me. And particularly as I look back at the past twelve months, I can sense that the shedding, transforming, and stripping down of realities, identities, belief systems has been incomparable. A lot of it happened in the subtle realms, on the backdrop of my outer life, greatly invisible to most, but highly transformative for me.
Yet, one stabbing pain accompanied me all this time:
The Feeling of Being Unseen.
That nagging feeling of being invisible, still, on some level, in some way – even though I felt like I had tried so hard, for so long. That feeling that the true me was still hiding behind masks of perfectionism, and even though I had kept pushing outwards, I was seemingly not ready for the full reveal yet. I wanted so badly to boldly step out into the world, but life knew better.
And I resented life for it.
I resented the Instagram algorithms that seemingly wouldn’t allow for my content to thrive. I resented family and friends who were seemingly blind to the work I had poured my soul into. I resented society for not acknowledging the work on the inner planes and I resented all structures and necessities that seemed to oppose my truest needs and desires.
For the good first half of the year, this very resentment grew a shield around my heart. It was protective. I felt like I needed it to keep the pain out, and my dreams in. It shielded me from my own anger, and from seeing a way out. All it allowed for was to see myself as insufficient, as not yet deserving of visibility – for reasons that eluded me.
Releasing the Shield.
But over time, the shield got weaker. Over time, and with gentle yet deeply soul-touching support from my wonderful mentor, Violetta (shout out to this inspiring soul, you can find her here, be sure to give her a follow!), I dared to drop it and actually look at what resides behind.
And there I found her. She who is Unseen. She who is Hidden. She who is a Secret.
At first I felt reluctant to commune with her. Wasn’t she the one who kept me from the visibility I so deeply longed for? Wasn’t she the one who got in the way between me and letting my work flow out into the world? Wasn’t she the one who kept me trapped?
She was. And yet she showed me why – and I finally was ready to see.
Why I Couldn’t Let Invisibility Go.
She is the one whose deepest desire is silence, the one who works in the darkness of her soul chamber to weave light. She is the one who cherishes peace and quiet, calm and rest. She is also the guardian of some of my deepest fears: of overwhelm, of not being ready yet, of arriving too soon and missing out on the journey, of losing love through success, and ultimately of the death of my inner child’s freedom if I were to be truly visible and held accountable for remaining so.
Of course she would make sure that the silence remained, that the soul chamber was locked, that the quiet peace would not be broken.
And I begun to understand what I had done. I had tried to break into her chamber with a crowbar, to then deny all her needs and reject all the fears that she guards. I had threatened her with a black and white view of the outcome, without mercy.
And with the recognition of my merciless attempts of invading her sacred chamber, I heard her pleads and ideas. I heard the true messages hidden underneath her longings and her fears.
The Way Out of Hiding.
I will keep changing, she says, and that’s perfect – there’s no need to be ready and done to take others along on the journey. Please don’t pressure me to arrive at a finalised version of me, it’s impossible to achieve.
I need silence, and that’s perfect – please always keep space for quietness, calm, and rest – learn to prioritise them.
There is no either, or. No black and white. There’s no need to be present 24/7, please allow yourself to say no, to go back to the chamber of silence, to rest, to be still.
I will never arrive, that’s never the point of life and literally impossible because it’s not natural – so please don’t fear losing the journey.
I deeply desire to play freely, please let the inner child roam free, let her be part of it all!
And as I listen and understand, I can sense the Unseen One breathe more deeply. She who is Hidden begins to feel that she won’t lose her chamber of silence, that she won’t lose all that’s dear to her once I dare to be seen.
May we all listen to the Silent Ones within us, and may we grant them what they desire so deeply – so we can journey with them into the future of our unfolding.
Allowing this path to unfold, allowing our souls to slowly bring more of themselves to the light. I personally will continue this journey here on Substack and also on my new Instagram account, please feel free to come and follow me here!
To end this letter between the years, I’d also like to offer you a gentle hand towards your own unfolding:
The Codes of 2023
Do you desire to start into the New Year with a uniquely channeled set of Soul Codes to enrichen your path and bring forward the frequency of your 2023?
A handful of spaces remain for The Activation: channeled codes brought to you to help activate new aspects of your blueprint, acting as keys of remembrance for your vessel, ready to be downloaded into your awareness once more.
You can find out more here.
“It felt like ‘Yes, this is me’ at first sigh and it’s so interesting to explore all the details. […] I had tears in my eyes because it is so very beautiful. […] You are truly gifted and I’m so glad to receive this activation!” – Kim