When You Just Don’t Want to "Human".

THE STORY – And you only want do magic instead (here's why that's not the answer).

With THE STORY I’m sharing words from my soul, stories from my life, and the myth of my experience. Let’s talk about that icky feeling that I bet you all know – you just don’t want to do human today. Here’s what I think is the true, important meaning behind it.

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I was just about to settle in to begin writing, a woolly blanket wrapped around my cold legs and a hot coffee steaming to my left, when the piece of frankincense I had just gently placed on my trusted incense burner suddenly burst into flames. The small, but very unexpected combustion to my right released a surprisingly large amount of smoke, and had me jump up, blow out the tea light in the burner, and rush to open the window.

My heart rate was up, and I was extra glad about choosing decaf today. The room was filled with frankincense, so much so that I had to squint every now and again, and I kept glancing at the smoke detector above my desk, doubting its usefulness as it continued to stay silent.

What a way to start a writing session.

Admittedly, I had been quite tired, and the thought of sitting down to write was semi-inspiring to my yawning self who would have enjoyed to crawl back into bed (but after a long nap, I thought that I better get up – I’d like to leave some sleep for tonight, and not get it over and done with in the afternoon).

The frankincense incident has woken me up enough to dive in – and, ironically, it feels like a cosmic joke, a comical nod by the universe to approve of the topic I have been longing to write about:

That urge to not do “human”, but to do mystic only.

In other words: to only drift off into the subtle realms on a cloud of frankincense, but not to go grocery shopping, or do tax returns, and, God forbid, to have a normal, boring day of doing this being a human adult thing.

The Mystic’s Silent Suffering.

It feels like it’s one of those things that’s not talked about enough. Because it sounds a little silly, a little immature even. Maybe you think you’re just being a bit lazy, a bit too much of a dreamer, and maybe you really should get a grip and get over it.

Well, I don’t think it’s that simple – because I don’t think it has anything to do with being a lazy dreamer, but much more so with being attuned to a way of life that is different.

Here’s what I mean:

As a mystic – a priestess, a cosmic wisdom keeper, a vision weaver, or however else you identify – you, most likely, have been around the block a few times. You have lived many incarnations, seen many places, experienced many ways of doing this thing called life. When you carry the memories of ancient lineages within your soul, you carry imprints of having lived very differently from how we experience life as a mystic today.

Maybe you have been an ancient temple priestess, revered for her oracular abilities, and fully immersed in her role throughout her whole life. Maybe you were a wisdom keeper of a long forgotten order that had patrons secure your livelihood, so you could focus on your highest work.

It’s not just the past that calls to you, it’s the future, too. Maybe you sense the potential of alternative timelines where intangible work in the subtle realms is just as valued as physical productivity. Maybe you have one foot in the New Earth (or however you choose to call the alternative way of being human that is anchored in serving life), and you are being pulled towards something you cannot put words to just yet, but it feels oh-so-real.

What if it’s not the human part that puts you off?

What you feel when you are being “forced” to leave your mystic cave and engage in the mundane tasks of human life, is resistance – I believe – not towards being human (although we may mistake it for being that!), but towards the incongruence and misalignment you feel within the distorted systems of our current way of being alive on Earth.

It’s not laziness – it’s a deep inner wisdom that hints at the places where you can see potential for change.

It’s not escapism – it’s seeing and acknowledging that you sense an alternative way of doing life.

Of course, we still need to get out of bed and do the things. I still need to stop my blazing frankincense from having my desk catch fire, and I still have to get that smoke detector checked out (honestly…it must be broken).

But it becomes a lot easier to get up and do “human” when you realise that your resistance towards it doesn’t stem from

• you not belonging here

• you being inherently wrong, or, on the other side, so far advanced and better than anyone else that you are simply too enlightened for menial tasks

• you being a lazy procrastinator

• or you having lost connection to what it means to be human in the first place.

But that instead

• it’s a real and true feeling that you are allowed to feel

• it’s not meant to hold you back, but to point you towards a better future

• it’s not wrong or bad to feel this way (rather, it prevents you from following the masses/rules/conventions without questioning them in a healthy way).

So let’s stop making ourselves wrong for longing to stay in our imaginary, witchy cottage in the woods, collecting herbs and writing spells all day, but instead celebrate that we can hold the duality of the dream of an alternative way of life, AND stay rooted in the here and now, even when that means queuing in a noisy supermarket, or battling bureaucracy.

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