Trusting What You’ve Learnt to Be a Lie.

Explore how to deepen your trust, and let go of the pesky stories that taught you doubt was more real than your mystic-ness.

With THE ADVENTURE I’m inviting you on a journey of mystic exploration, in words from my soul to yours, to nourish your mystic mind and heart. Today let’s debunk the story of “just trust”.

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Trust.

As a mystic, you have probably contemplated trust a million times, and more. Just like the questions of how to trust more deeply, how to feel complete trust in your path, your life, your soul, the universe, God.

Maybe you have gone down rabbit holes like I have: getting hooked up in loops of “trying to trust”, of fearing that only if I trusted fully and completely, I’d be able to manifest, so that any slither of doubt became a threat.

Well, it’s time to debunk that!

The other day I happened to browse through a journal of mine that I started in 2020. To my surprise, already then I wrote at the beginning of the year that my goal was to deepen into trust, making it my dedicated word of the year. I got curious, and searched for what I wrote in 2021 – and again: rooting into trust was the goal. And like that, it continued. Trust. Every year since I began to set an intention for the following year, the intention was to focus on trust.

It got me thinking: clearly, to trust is a much more universal, long-term, and extensive effort than something to focus on for a year. It is a life-long endeavour, a pathway that is the most human, and in a way the most challenging for a human being to pursue. Because playing with trust means inevitably also playing with doubt, anxiety, and fear.

So often I have been told: just trust yourself. Just trust that it will work out. Just trust that it will be okay. Just trust.

But I don’t think there’s a “just” about trusting. It is not something you can do, like just brushing your teeth real quickly and then you’re done. It is a concept, a way of life, that goes very much against what most of us have been taught from a very young age: that most things in life cannot be trusted.

One of those things we learn to distrust, which is particularly painful for mystics and sensitive souls, is our very own psychic-ness. Our spidey-senses, our clairs, like clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, and claircognisance.

As someone brought up in a very rationalised, atheist, logic-based Western environment, the mere existence of these senses was not something that was in any way acknowledged. These alternative ways of seeing the world were, if anything, regarded as something imaginary at best, crazy or pathological at worst. If ever anyone openly mentioned abilities to see, hear, sense or know something beyond the norm, I learned, it was something to ridicule or stamp as a plain lie. Consequently, a spiritual or mystical engagement with the world was to be kept private and hidden away.

Rather than being taught how to trust our intuitive senses, the children of the rationalised world grew up to not even regard them as real. And yet, true, deep trust is – in my opinion – not something that can arise from the rational mind. It is something that comes to life in the body, and it finds its way in through intuition, through our clairs, and our capacity to engage with and follow our inner knowing, the wisdom of the unseen, the guidance of our soul and God, and how we are able to see and interact with the magic of synchronicity.

And yet, most of us were never really taught how to do these things. As mystic souls, our access to it all is there, and it is strong – and yet it takes work to build the trust in all that we have been taught doesn’t even exist.

With that said, I feel like one of the biggest favours to do yourself on the path towards deepening your trust is to acknowledge the fact that you are putting a lot of eggs into a basket that society told you was not real. And when doubt creeps in, when your mind questions the guidance you feel in your heart, and when your thoughts try to convince you you’re naive to believe what you feel is true, remember that your nervous system is still catching up. It tries to protect you, and it is affected by a lifetime of conditioning of living in a system that negates a huge core aspect of being human.

Personally, I feel that letting go of the mainstream New Age idea that only when you trust completely, you will succeed in your endeavour is the first and hugely important step towards building a healthy relationship with trust that is not founded on a toxic paradox. Needing to perfect your trusting abilities to be able to fully trust is a loop that keeps you stuck in a wounded healer pattern, always needing to heal more, do more, work on more in order to begin trusting fully.

What if your level of trust right now is enough? What if you don’t need to eliminate the last speck of doubt? What if true, deep trust is not the absence of fear, but a gentle surrendering to your mysticness despite fear, even a co-creation with fear?

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