Thank you for the reminder that "your nervous system is still catching up" Klara, this felt like an important thing for me to acknowledge with where I'm at on this journey. I sometimes also think that 'the world around me is also catching up' 😂. I also very much resonate with the feeling that I'm "putting a lot of eggs into a basket that society told you was not real." re-defining what is and isn't real has been a huge game changer for me. I'm also learning to be okay with eggs going into that basket, even if its not a visible basket, because that's where they, for me, feel both safe and free and I don't want whether it can be seen or not, make it valid or not - thanks for the re-assurance in this post! X
Sounds all 'Wonderland Like'... Trusting the Trust that the Trust will Change...
I can sense how a mystic can have a hard time entrusting within the fullness of trust - Trust seems to direct towards Faith. As Trust has no sensical tangibility - only the 'result from trust...?'
Capricious Spacious Nervous system maneuverability in 'knowing'... trust may be one of the most easily broken senses (at least as my body comprehends it) - especially in Chronic Management.
It is quite systemic that we have to have the tangible explanations and expositions and explainable phenomenon - we can't just go around throwing trust around! It's like - "I trust that tree to grow!" should have as much tangible success as "I trust my body to heal" - yet so so so so so so so so (etc, etc...) factors play into all of the manners of form that surround us! One gust of wind and the tree falls, one unseen disease and my system goes RADICAL!
I can only jump to consolation therein - hey, maneuvering the world - witnessing it as is! The tree has fallen, the body has broken... and living the truths therein, eh?
Thank you for the reminder that "your nervous system is still catching up" Klara, this felt like an important thing for me to acknowledge with where I'm at on this journey. I sometimes also think that 'the world around me is also catching up' 😂. I also very much resonate with the feeling that I'm "putting a lot of eggs into a basket that society told you was not real." re-defining what is and isn't real has been a huge game changer for me. I'm also learning to be okay with eggs going into that basket, even if its not a visible basket, because that's where they, for me, feel both safe and free and I don't want whether it can be seen or not, make it valid or not - thanks for the re-assurance in this post! X
Such beautiful reflections, thank you! I totally feel all of this!
Sounds all 'Wonderland Like'... Trusting the Trust that the Trust will Change...
I can sense how a mystic can have a hard time entrusting within the fullness of trust - Trust seems to direct towards Faith. As Trust has no sensical tangibility - only the 'result from trust...?'
Capricious Spacious Nervous system maneuverability in 'knowing'... trust may be one of the most easily broken senses (at least as my body comprehends it) - especially in Chronic Management.
It is quite systemic that we have to have the tangible explanations and expositions and explainable phenomenon - we can't just go around throwing trust around! It's like - "I trust that tree to grow!" should have as much tangible success as "I trust my body to heal" - yet so so so so so so so so (etc, etc...) factors play into all of the manners of form that surround us! One gust of wind and the tree falls, one unseen disease and my system goes RADICAL!
I can only jump to consolation therein - hey, maneuvering the world - witnessing it as is! The tree has fallen, the body has broken... and living the truths therein, eh?
If anything... Trusting the Truths of a Lie?
As always, thank you for your words and your deep reflections, Jacob! It means a lot!